Day 120: April 30, 2009

Question 53:
Is there only one soul mate for each person?

Responses:

• I used to think that there was only one soul mate for each person, but now I don’t. I believe in the possibility of loving more than one person at the time, and I believe that a soul mate can be anyone who is willing to go on a true journey with another human being, even they are complete opposites and/or if they come from different backgrounds.
• There's no such thing as a soul mate. Life isn't some jigsaw puzzle where our mission is to find who we precisely fit with. It's more fluid than that.

For background on this project, go here: http://christopherheath.blogspot.com/2008/11/over-table-and-under-bar.html

Song:
Young Foks, by Peter Bjorn & John

Lyrics:
If i told you things i did before
Told you how i used to be
Would you go along with someone like me
If you knew my story word for word
Had all of my history
Would you go along with someone like me

I did before and had my share, It didn't lead nowhere
I would go along with someone like you
It doesn't matter what you do
Who you were hanging with
We could stick around and see this night through

And we don't care about the young folks
Talkin' bout the young style
And we don't care about the old folks
Talkin' 'bout the old style too
And we don't care about our own faults
Talkin' 'bout our own style
All we care about is talking
Talking only me and you

Usually when things has gone this far, People tend to disappear
No one would surprise me unless you do

I can tell there's something goin' on, Hours seem to disappear
Everyone is leaving i'm still with you

It doesn't matter what we do, Where we are going to
We can stick around and see this night through

And we don't care about the young folks
Talkin' bout the young style
And we don't care about the old folks
Talkin' 'bout the old style too
And we don't care about our own faults
Talkin' 'bout our own style
All we care about is talking
Talking only me and you
And we don't care about the young folks
Talkin' bout the young style
And we don't care about the old folks
Talkin' 'bout the old style too
And we don't care about our own faults
Talkin' 'bout our own style
All we care about is talking
Talking only me and you
(repeat)
Talking only me and you

Talking only me and you
Talking only me and you

Day 120: April 30, 2009

Day 119: April 29, 2009

Question 33:
What do you miss about childhood?

Responses:

• The agonizingly slow passage of time.
• The wonder of learning new things daily in elementary school and being assigned time to read and paint and sing and play - though my world was smaller, I was more self-actualized. Who believed grown-ups then, that it was no fun being big?
• I miss driving around in my car in Libertyville, Illinois. I miss having friends come over and getting trashed in my basement. I miss going to Old Orchard Mall and hanging out ALL day long walking around with friends and chatting. I miss hanging out in my friends pool on hot summer days and listening to music and dancing.
• I miss not having a childhood

For background on this project, go here: http://christopherheath.blogspot.com/2008/11/over-table-and-under-bar.html

Song:
Little Toy Gun, by Honey Honey

Lyrics:
I know you sat alone so many nights waiting for me.
Cold, your face like a stone, I hang up the phone when we disagree.
Standing there by my side when the fighting is done,
glaring at me in the light is my little toy gun.
Shining in black like shoes on a rack with a trigger that’s dressed up in gold.
It’s always warm inside my home but its handle is always so cold.
Whispering into my ear, all the lies you spun.
My single greatest fear is my little toy gun.

Wait for the day when I can save face and come to a happy home.
I know it’s turning me to the count of girl who’d rather be alone.
Just wait til I get my way - I promise you it won’t be fun.
If you feel like you should pray, pray for my little toy gun.

Day 118: April 28, 2009

Question 86:
What was your most memorable meal ever?

Responses:

• Thanksgiving 2006--at our house. The 1st one we hosted.

For background on this project, go here: http://christopherheath.blogspot.com/2008/11/over-table-and-under-bar.html

Song:
Put Your Records On, by Corinne Bailey Rae

Lyrics:
Three little birds, sat on my window.
And they told me I don't need to worry.
Summer came like cinnamon
So sweet,
Little girls double-dutch on the concrete.

Maybe sometimes, we've got it wrong, but it's alright
The more things seem to change, the more they stay the same
Oh, don't you hesitate.

Girl, put your records on, tell me your favorite song
You go ahead, let your hair down
Sapphire and faded jeans, I hope you get your dreams,
Just go ahead, let your hair down.

You're gonna find yourself somewhere, somehow.

Blue as the sky, sunburnt and lonely,
Sipping tea in the bar by the roadside,
(just relax, just relax)
Don't you let those other boys fool you,
Got to love that afro hair do.

Maybe sometimes, we feel afraid, but it's alright
The more you stay the same, the more they seem to change.
Don't you think it's strange?

Girl, put your records on, tell me your favorite song
You go ahead, let your hair down
Sapphire and faded jeans, I hope you get your dreams,
Just go ahead, let your hair down.

You're gonna find yourself somewhere, somehow.

'Twas more than I could take, pity for pity's sake
Some nights kept me awake, I thought that I was stronger
When you gonna realise, that you don't even have to try any longer?
Do what you want to.

Girl, put your records on, tell me your favorite song
You go ahead, let your hair down
Sapphire and faded jeans, I hope you get your dreams,
Just go ahead, let your hair down.

Girl, put your records on, tell me your favorite song
You go ahead, let your hair down
Sapphire and faded jeans, I hope you get your dreams,
Just go ahead, let your hair down.

Oh, you're gonna find yourself somewhere, somehow

Day 117: April 27, 2009

Question 95:
If you had to spend one year living alone in a remote cabin, what would you spend your time doing?

Responses:

• Writing and looking at porn.

For background on this project, go here: http://christopherheath.blogspot.com/2008/11/over-table-and-under-bar.html

Song:
Chasing Pavements, by Adele

Lyrics:
I've made up my mind
Don't need to think it over,
If i'm wrong I am right,
Don't need to look no further,
This ain't lust, I know
This is love but,

If i tell the world,
I'll never say enough,
Cause it was not said to you,
And thats exactly what i need to do,
If i'm in love with you,

Should i give up,
Or should i just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere,
Or would it be a waste?
Even If i knew my place should i leave it there?
Should i give up,
Or should i just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere

I'd build myself up,
And fly around in circles,
Wait then as my heart drops,
and my back begins to tingle
finally could this be it or

Should i give up,
Or should i just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere,
Or would it be a waste?
Even If i knew my place should i leave it there?
Should i give up,
Or should i just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere
Yeah

Should i give up,
Or should i just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere,
Or would it be a waste?
Even If i knew my place should i leave it there?
Should i give up,
Or should i just...keep on.. chasing.. pavements?
should i just...keep on.. chasing.. pavements?
Ohhhh

Should i give up,
Or should i just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere,
Or would it be a waste?
Even If i knew my place should i leave it there?
Should i give up,
Or should i just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere.
Eeee

Day 116: April 26, 2009

Question 85:
What do you dream your life will be like in 10 years?

Responses:

• I'll be 43. When I was little, I never even dreamed I'd be 30. I didn't know how to dream that big. I like to think that when I'm 43 I'll look younger than my age. I dream that I won't be falling apart like some of my friends in their 40's. Some of them go to the doctor too much. I dream that my husband and I will be married for 20 years and 10 years from now we'll be saying that we've been supremely content and happy with one another for a little over 10 years. We're just now in a comfortable and content spot. In 10 years, I dream that my son will be completely mainstreamed and show no signs of his speech and oral motor delays that are the reason for all the therapies we attend right now. (4 therapies a week, two speech, two OT, plus his preschool is ALL speech 5 days a week)...he's doing so much better than he was a year ago, 2 years ago, 4 years ago...he just keeps getting better and better and more and more amazing. He's a miracle. In 10 years, our beautiful daughter will be 16 going on 30 (I'm sure), but I dream that she will be such a gift from God, pure in body and spirit, loving and giving and trustworthy, and basically completely UNLIKE the way I was at 16. This is a dream. And in 10 years, the baby I am carrying in my womb will be almost 10 years old...I haven't even met him yet, but I know he'll be FUN! I hope to have one more child during the next 10 years...so really only God knows if that's going to happen. I dream happiness and love for our family, and this is also my prayer for our family. I don't care if we're poor or rich. I've realized in the past 10 years that money cannot guarantee happiness. Peace and contentment come from God, not from this world. The family we're given is from God, and so in 10 years I dream (and hope) that we are full of God's peace and contentment and enjoy each day we spend with each other.
• Children. Lots of money. Physically healthy. Comfortable.

For background on this project, go here: http://christopherheath.blogspot.com/2008/11/over-table-and-under-bar.html
Song:
Hellhounds, by The Gourds

Lyrics:
As I walk the length of your broken fence
I cannot help but look inside
'Til someone hollers hey don't you pry
And I'm standing at the gate
No go and get you derelict or I'll sick my hounds on you
So I took off without mouthing off
Down the road to the State Fair
Now I see chickens, I see hens, I see the prized blue ribbon bird
But she ain't mine, mine placed third
Down at our State Fair
Now the State Fair has that carnie feel and it's smelling like my livestock barn
And the bearded lady's nice to me
We have cocktails in her trailer
Take it
Now her boyfriend he's the beanbag man
He's jealous as all hell you see
He caught me in her ole Airstreamer
Yes but, I ain't no home wrecker
On the way back home I pass again
The broken fence and I'm standing at the gate
I said buddy why don't you mend it
And he let his hell hounds loose

Day 115: April 25, 2009

Question 93:
Has anything bad ever happened to you that turned out to be for the best?

Responses:

• I got fired from Waldbaums supermarket when I was 17 -- saved me from a life as a cashier. I'm blessed, really. There have been setbacks in my life, and bad times -- but nothing that in and of itself changed my course. My reactions to them are what changed my life.
• Constant fighting with my parents, which led me to leave TU

For background on this project, go here: http://christopherheath.blogspot.com/2008/11/over-table-and-under-bar.html

Song:
Pony (It's OK), by Erin McCarley

Lyrics:
You hold your head up to the sky
You say what kind of blue
are you? Are you?
Then you ride your pony round and round
It’s diggin’ a hole, right through, right through

You stumble down a yellow brick road,
Spinning your shoes in the air, the air.

Then you, hold your breath, and count to nine,
Hoping that soon somebody will find you, find you,

Go on, go on, go on, the stars are watching,
Just say, just say, just say, what you’re feeling,
You know, you know, you know, you gotta take a bow and do it your way,
It’s okay, ladadadadadadadada, it’s okay, ladadadadadadadada

You’re 15 miles over the speed,
You’re going fast as you can after your daydream
Ohh

I might get sad, carried away
Or have a serious talk with your, champaign.

Go on, go on, go on, the stars are watching,
Just say, just say, just say, what you’re feeling,
You know, you know, you know, you gotta take a bow and do it your way,
It’s okay, ladadadadadadadada, it’s okay, ladadadadadadadada

It’s time for you to prove,
Within your ruby shoes
You deserve a smile with no regret,
Look at you
Kicking off your shoes,
Dancing for the world to see,
You got the power to believe,
Open up and see,
And I’ll be free and fly away,

Go on, go on, go on, the stars are watching,
Just say, just say, just say, what you’re feeling,
You know, you know, you know, you gotta take a bow and do it your way,
It’s okay, ladadadadadadadada, it’s okay, ladadadadadadadada
It’s okay, ladada ladada, it’s okay, ladadadadadadadada

Day 114: April 24, 2009

Question 82:
What life experience has strengthened you the most?

Responses

• Learning how to value myself while in an unhappy marriage and finding the courage to extricate myself from it.
• I think you 'get strengthened' - or you don't - when you are very young. Then you have access to that strength when you go through difficult times. And watching my newborn daughter fight for her life, I realized that some are born strong. So if I might, I'd rephrase your question to read 'what life experience most tested your strengths' and to that I'd answer watching my newborn daughter fight for her life.
• Moving away from my family--becoming independent

For background on this project, go here: http://christopherheath.blogspot.com/2008/11/over-table-and-under-bar.html

Song:
Take a Bow, by Leona Lewis

Lyrics:
Ohhh, oooo...

The flowers are all faded now
Along with your letters
They will never see the light of day
Cause I'll never take them out
There's no turning back
It's for the better
Baby I deserve more than empty words
And promises
I believed everything you said
And I give you the best I had
Oh.

So take a bow
Cause you've taken everything else
You played the part
Like a star you played it so well
Take a bow
Cause this scene is coming to an end
I gave you love
All you give me was pretend
So now take a bow...

The future's about to change
Before you know it
The curtain closes
Take a look around
There's no one in the crowd
I'm throwing away the pain
And you should know that your performance
Made me strong enough

So take a bow
Cause you've taken everything else
You played the part
Like a star you played it so well
Take a bow
Cause this scene is coming to an end
I gave you love.
All you give me was pretend
So now take a bow...

Well it must have been slight of hand
Cause I still can't understand
How I could never see
Just what a fool believed
Mmmm

But the lies they start to show
Tell me how does it feels to know
Right now that I wont be around
So baby before where ever you are

Take a bow
Cause you've takin everything else (you've takin everything else)
You played the part like a star you played it so well (so well)
Take a bow
Cause this scene is coming to an end (End)
I gave you love.
All you gave me was pretend
So now take a bow

Take a bow
Cause you've taken everything else
You played the part (I gave you all my love) like I star you played it so well (I gave you all my love)
Take a bow
Cause this scene is coming to an end
I gave you love. (Ohhhh)
All you give me was pretend
So now take a bow

Day 113: April 23, 2009

Question 35:
If you could have a conversation with a deceased friend or relative, who would you choose?

Responses:

• I would want to talk to my dad's mother, Peggy. She was born in Scotland, became an orphan, got moved to Ireland, came to America, married my very Italian grandfather, had 5 children in a small period of time, and died very young. She must have been rich with experiences and hardships; I would like to hear about them.
• My father—to tell him that I would like to forgive him.
• Janet Ward. She is my first close friend or relative that has passed. I miss her and I have a lot of questions about dying
• Granddad Collyar.

For background on this project, go here: http://christopherheath.blogspot.com/2008/11/over-table-and-under-bar.html

Song:
A Sunday Smile, by Beirut

Lyrics:
All I want is the best for our lives my dear,
and you know my wishes are sincere.
Whats to say for the days I cannot bare.

A Sunday smile you wore it for a while.
A Sunday mile we paused and sang.
A Sunday smile you wore it for a while.
A Sunday mile we paused and sang.
A Sunday smile and we felt true. (and)

We burnt to the ground
left a view to admire
with buildings inside church of white.
We burnt to the ground left a grave to admire.
And as we reach for the sky, reach the church of white.

A Sunday smile you wore it for a while.
A Sunday mile we paused and sang.
A Sunday smile you wore it for a while.
A Sunday mile we paused and sang.
A Sunday smile and we felt true. (and)

Over the Table and Under the Bar

Am reposting this, just in case new viewers have arrived...and thanks for the shout-out, Leonard!

Originally posted January 16, 2009:

On January 1, 2009, I began writing on the Over the Table and Under the Bar series.

I am literally picking a question and a song out of a bowl and a vase, respectively, each morning. The two slips of paper are being stapled to the print-out of the song lyrics, which is then folded and inserted into my journal.

16 days into the series, I'm finding that I'm having to force myself to keep it brief. The first couple of plays were difficult to write, but the past couple could have gone on for pages and pages. Last night, I found myself at 10:45 PM telling myself that I had to wrap up the play because I was exhausted and wanted to get to sleep. I really could have (and probably will, eventually) written much more on those two characters.

I'll post (each day, hopefully) the question, responses, song, and lyrics of the day. Though the writing has started, I'd love to keep reading your responses. Carl seems to be having fun with creating his own stories when he reads the day's picks. I imagine some of you will, too.

Now we're 112 days in...I'm behind on the writing, but will finish up strong now that I'm in the home stretch...63 plays left is somehow the home stretch...but hey...

Day 112: April 22, 2009

Question 117:
When you're down, what do you do to feel better?

Responses:

• Write

Song:
Man Burning, by Josh Ritter

Lyrics:
Don't stand so close to me
Don't be another tragedy
I've burned everybody who had a hand to lend
A man burning at both ends
No one put me in this hell
I lit a fire underneath myself
Now I'm blazing the same old trail back to you again
A man burning at both ends
A dangerous thing to know about
No painless way to put me out
You either make a bed that's cold
Or you're walking barefoot over coals
I regret the things I've done
Bitter words and fiery tongues
And letters burned to smoke and then turned to wind
A man burning at both ends
A dangerous thing to know about
No painless way to put me out
You either make a bed that's cold
Or you're walking barefoot over coals
We ran barefoot through the reeds
Wetted down and with the need
The tide though high and getting higher
Could not put out the man on fire
Look look look look look down your street for me
Look look look look look up your the window please
You'll see a light where before no light had been
A man burning at both ends

Day 111: April 21, 2009

Question 73:
Is science or art more essential to humanity?

Responses:

• I say art is more essential to humanity although I think I should say science. I am more of an artistic person (and it interests me more), so I would go with what I am comfortable with – which is art. Art in its varying forms is essential to humanity as beauty needs to be seen and absorbed. It has the power to transfix, stimulate and inspire. Understanding that all art is subjective, the core meaning of a piece of art – be it opera, a painting, sculpture etc brings peace and beauty to the beholder, which I would like to believe does humanity good.
• Good question. I'd have to say art. Art, in whatever form, encourages the person who creates it, as well as those who experience it, to think, feel, listen with all their senses. Very personal human experiences, thoughts, emotions, dilemmas, given form, can communicate on so many levels and have profound meaning to all types of people...and change their lives. Art is a healthy way to express oneself often more clearly than words alone...
• Art. Science will develop itself; art won't.

Song:
The Stoop, by Little Jackie

Lyrics:
This stoop is my throne
This hood is my home
And the sky’s always blue by the brownstones
We in Brooklyn, it ain’t no Beverly Hills
Basically we pay bills, then chill
It’s like east coast bliss, its like west coast diss
We do it like this and you seal it with a kiss
And a pound, that’s just how it go down
It’s the protocol, do you feel me all?

Saturday afternoon we talk about the night before
And tonight we’re gonna do it some more
Sunday morning hear the bands in the church play
All day long, every block there’s a new song

Sitting on the stoop in Bed Stuy
Always sayin hi when the brothas walk by
Just proper etiquette
Sitting on the top step
With a bag of chips, sit back, relax, enjoy the trip
We got a neighborly philosophy
I don’t mess with you, you don’t mess with me
It is what it is, it ain’t all hard up in the hood
Sittin on my front stoop and its all good

Boys in wife beaters and corn rows
Wear their pants down low so their briefs can show
Girls be always dressed up
Giving their best stuff
Workin that hairdo
Boys are gonna bless you
Always some commotion at the corner store
That the corner cops chose to ignore
Everybody ride tune to a different song
When they pass by I bob my head along

I don't smoke spliffs but don’t mind the aroma
If the deli out of stella then I settle for corona
And I claim my spot for the evening
Let the part begin, we gonna do it again

Sitting on the stoop in Bed Stuy
Always sayin hi when the brothas walk by
Just proper etiquette
Sitting on the top step
With a bag of chips, sit back, relax, enjoy the trip
We got a neighborly philosophy
I don’t mess with you, you don’t mess with me
It is what it is, it ain’t all hard up in the hood
Sittin on my front stoop and its all good

Its all good
Its all good
Cause I l-l-l-l-love my hood
L-l-l-l-love my hood
Its all good
Its all good
Cause I l-l-l-l-love my hood
L-l-l-l-love my hood

Sitting on the stoop in Bed Stuy
Always sayin hi when the brothas walk by
Just proper etiquette
Sitting on the top step
With a bag of chips, sit back, relax, enjoy the trip
We got a neighborly philosophy
I don’t mess with you, you don’t mess with me
It is what it is, it ain’t all hard up in the hood
Sittin on my front stoop and its all good

Day 110: April 20, 2009

Question 91:
At what age do most people become old and what is the secret to staying young?

Responses:

• I think people grow up when they have to truly deal with a painful loss – love, health, finances, etc. My opinion about the border to OLDsville, for mankind at large, has continued to move as I’ve aged, but I think individuals become old when they lose their youthful hope in people and circumstances. I’ve known a few 80+ yr olds with great attitudes, whose faces remain young and beautiful because their joy and hope are actively nurtured. I hope to have one of those faces
• Sixty. It's just a fact. Sixty is officially old. Which is not to say that every sixty-year-old is over the hill or that younger people can't be calcified. The secret to staying young? Easy: do stuff. (get a hobby?)
• 68. One year before they only have 1 year left before 70. Worry sets in. Staying young: keep mind active.

Song:
Did You Say Goodbye, by Brian Maddox

Lyrics:
did you say goodbye
did i say hello
before we started letting go
i'll never know
i'll never know

did you say you must
did i say i might
did we ever trust
before giving up the fight
i'll never know
i'll never know

but now all that i was hoping for
is locked behind slamming doors
what were we fighting for
i'll never be sure

did you say you win
did i say i lose
did we just give in
before we had a chance to choose
i'll never know
i'll never know

did you say i do
did i say i don't
did we have a clue
that someday we'd both say we won't
i'll never know
i'll never know

but now all that's left of you and me
is a division of property
a division of property
is that all you mean to me

Day 109: April 19, 2009

Question 132:
How will our culture change in the next 100 years?

Responses:

• Race will be less of an issue, equal rights all around, and whites will be a minority

Song:
Such Great Heights, by The Postal Service

Lyrics:
I am thinking it's a sign
That the freckles in our eyes are mirror images
And when we kiss they're perfectly aligned
And I have to speculate
That God himself did make
Us into corresponding shapes
Like puzzle pieces from the clay

And true, it may seem like a stretch
But it's thoughts like this that catch
My troubled head when you're away
When I am missing you to death
When you are out there on the road
For several weeks of shows
And when you scan the radio
I hope this song will guide you home

They will see us waving from such great heights,
"come down now", they'll say
But everything looks perfect from far away,
"come down now", but we'll stay...

I tried my best to leave
This all on your machine
But the persistent beat it sounded thin
Upon listening
And that frankly will not fly
You will hear the shrillest highs
And lowest lows with the windows down
When this is guiding you home

They will see us waving from such great
Heights,
"come down now", they'll say
But everything looks perfect from far away
"come down now", but we'll stay...

They will see us waving from such great
Heights,
"come down now", they'll say
But everything looks perfect from far away
"come down now", but we'll stay...

They will see us waving from such great
Heights,
"come down now", (come down now)

They will see us waving from such great
Heights,
"come down now", (come down now)

Day 108: April 18, 2009

Question 62:
Is justice or forgiveness more important?

Responses:

• Justice. Given the fucked up world we live in, and what atrocities in all their fucked up forms are lived by hundreds of thousands of children in this world, it’s time for some justice. Forgiveness is a happy byproduct of justice having been served.
• Justice
• When I was young, Justice...Now that I'm older, forgiveness
• Forgiveness--brings it full circle, justice stops the loop

Song:
Keep the Car Running, by The Arcade Fire

Lyrics:
Every night my dream’s the same.
Same old city with a different name.
Men are coming to take me away.
I don’t know why but I know I can’t stay.

There’s a weight that’s pressing down.
Late at night you can hear the sound.
Even the noise you make when you sleep.
Can’t swim across a river so deep.
They know my name 'cause I told it to them,
But they don’t know where And they don’t know
When It’s coming, when It’s coming.

There’s a fear I keep so deep,
Knew it's name since before I could speak:
Aaaah aaaaaah aaaaah aaaaaah
They know my name 'cause I told it to them,
But they don’t know where And they don’t know
When It’s coming, Oh! when It’s coming

Keep the car running

If some night I don’t come home,
Please don’t think I’ve left you alone.
The same place animals go when they die,
You can’t climb across a mountain so high.
The same city where I go when I sleep,
You can’t swim across a river so deep.
They know my name 'cause I told it to them,
But they don’t know where
And they don’t know
When It’s coming, Oh! when is it coming?

Keep the car running
Keep the car running
Keep the car running

Day 107: April 17, 2009

Question 41:
Which celebrity would you most like to see in person?

Responses:

• As is performing? Watching a performance in person? Present: Madonna. Past: Harry Houdini. She’s gotta be magic, she looks too buff to be human. Actually, the same goes for Harry…
• Everytime I meet a celebrity I get so disappointed. I've met my favorite idols a few times now and I walk away thinking, well that was terrible. They are so depressed, not that pretty, really rude, disgusting!, swarmy, just like everybody else. I like the mystery. However, if Anna Farris stayed in character I would want to hang out with her always! She is ridiculously funny. I would also want Woody Allen to direct me in a film, but not to talk to me ever off of the set.
• See? None. Do naughty things with? Kevin Spacey and Bruce Willis.

Song:
Left and Leaving, by The Weakerthans

Lyrics:
My city's still breathing (but barely it's true)
Through buildings gone missing like teeth.
The sidewalks are watching me think about you,
Sparkled with broken glass.
I'm back with scars to show.
Back with the streets I know
Will never take me anywhere but here.
The stain in the carpet, this drink in my hand,
The strangers whose faces I know.
We meet here for our dress-rehearsal to say " I wanted it this way"
Wait for the year to drown.
Spring forward, fall back down.
I'm trying not to wonder where you are.
All this time lingers, undefined.
Someone choose who's left and who's leaving.
Memory will rust and erode into lists of all that you gave me:
A blanket, some matches, this pain in my chest,
The best parts of Lonely, duct-tape and soldered wires,
New words for old desires,
And every birthday card I threw away.
I wait in 4/4 time.
Count yellow highway lines that you're relying on to lead you home.

Day 106: April 16, 2009

Question 24:
How would our society be different if it were matriarchal instead of patriarchal?

Responses:

• The Ms. magazine answer: tampons would be free. My answer: wealth would be distributed differently, and the big fights would be over different things.
• I don’t think we would be in a war. Abortion rights might not be debated publicly as it would be obvious that women should have the right to choose. Family leave from work, extended maternity leave and child care might be enacted. Universal health care might be implemented. There would be more stay at home dads. And maybe women wouldn’t be so concerned about the shape of their body, the texture of their skin, beauty, and aging and just live to feel good. High heels and stockings would be obsolete.
• Society would be more communal, individual sacrifice for the greater (group) good. There would be more extended-family like relationships among people regardless of blood relationships.
• We are matriarchal in many ways—PC, most dominantly, which is negative. Overall, would be more open, accepting—which seems like a contradiction.

Song:
Kosinski, by The Angels of Light

Lyrics:
When the light shows
Through your window
I can see you there
In the mirror

Touching blond hair
That’s a river
Of translucent
Liquid life

Are you singing child
I can hear you here
Just by watching
Lips reflecting
Just by watching
Small breasts rising

With the rhythm of your breathing
I’m not here now
But I see you there
With your blue veins
Softly tapping skin

With the rhythm of your breathing
With the rhythm of my thinking
Are you sleeping now?
I could touch your silver hair

While your sleeping child
You can’t feel me here

Day 105: April 15, 2009

Question 63:
In which activity would you like a lesson from an expert?

Responses:

• A musical instrument like guitar, or an extreme sport like motorcross.
• Carpentry. I’ve always been fascinated with those who have the ability to build things using wood & tools and I would like to someday be able to do the same.
• Producing

Song:
Run Devil Run, by Jenny Lewis & The Watson Twins

Lyrics:
Run devil run
Devil run
Devil run

Run devil run
Devil run
Devil run

Run devil run
Devil run
Devil run

Day 104: April 14, 2009

Question 13:
Which language would you like to speak fluently?

Responses:

• French
• I would love to speak Japanese fluently. I love how the Japanese talk. It's like their mouths don't move at all and they are so polite and gracious.
• Spanish

Song:
In the Jailhouse Now, by Johnny Cash

Lyrics:
I had a friend named Bill Campbell he used to rob steal and gamble
And on the side he'd beg so he mopped up
Well I told ol' Billy shouldn't do but ol' Bill said that he knew it
So he started beggin' with a bucket instead of a cup
He's in the jailhouse now he's in the jailhouse now
Now ol' Bill fluffed his dove
When he wrote a tuxedo to the country club
He's in the jailhouse now

[ yodel ]

Now Bill had a gal named Saddie and she said have you seen Billy lately
No I don't believe that he's about
But ol' Saddie went down to the jail she it was just to take him his mail
Then she whispered sheriff please don't let him out
He's in the jailhouse now he's in the jailhouse now
It was while ol' Bill's away
Saddie's with the sheriff everyday he's in the jailhouse now

[ yodel ]
[ piano - guitar ]
[ yodel ]

Well I remember the last election the prohibitionists were in action
Tryin' to elect themselves a president
Bill Canpbell and John Austin they rode from New Orleans to Boston
And they've got a bottle in every settlement
They're in the jailhouse now they're in the jailhouse now
Lord they caught them out by the railroad track
Stealin' a train to haul it back they're in the jailhouse now

Day 103: April 13, 2009

Question 123:
What obligation do you believe you have to your country?

Responses:

• None. I believe in obligations to the world.
• Be vocal. Participate. Pay taxes.

Song:
If I Ain't Got You, by Alicia Keys

Lyrics:
Some people live for the fortune
Some people live just for the fame
Some people live for the power yeah
Some people live just to play the game
Some people think that the physical things
Define what's within
And I've been there before
But that life's a bore
So full of the superficial

Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you

Some people search for a fountain
That Promises forever young
Some people need three dozen roses
And that's the only way to prove you love to them

Hand me the world on a silver platter
And what good would it be
With no one to share, with no one who truly cares for me

Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you,you,you

Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you

If I ain't got you with me baby
Nothing in this whole wide world don't mean a thing
If I ain't got you with me baby

Day 102: April 12, 2009

Question 134:
What quality do you think is most important in marriage?

Responses:

• Trust
• Humor

Song:
Fiery Crash, by Andrew Bird

Lyrics:
Two stars are missing me
Jet waves are driving me
Thing in nicer motions
We are hauled into space

This force is twisting the faith with superstition
A fatal premonition
You know you've got to envision
The fiery crash

Ooh, close your eyes and you wake up
Face stuck up to a vinyl still tied
Ohh, a lot is starting to break off
Just as you were starting to say
Someday, apropos, i don't know

Bom bom bom bom bom bom bom bom bom

These childs in magazines
Blue doves in the sea on and tivo every monitor screen
You were caught in the cross fire
Where every human face is reaching for your knees or ears

Delivering position
A fatal premonition
Save our lives, you've got to envision
To save all our lives, you've got to envision

And to save all our lives, you've got to envision
The fiery crash, it's just a formality
Or must I explain, just a nod to mortality

Before you get ooon, before you get on a plane
Oooh, close your eyes and you wake up
Face stuck to a vinyl still tied
Ohh, a lot is starting to break off
What was that you were going to say?

Day 101: April 11, 2009

Question 61:
What change would you most like to make for your health?

Responses:

• I want more energy. I feel tired sometimes, but maybe that's just the Virgo in me.
• Walk five miles a day and lose 30 pounds
• Be physically active daily
• Gym every day for at least 2 hours

Song:
I Just Drove By, by Kimmie Rhodes and Willie Nelson

Lyrics:
I always go the other way but my car drove me down today
To a little house on the older side of town
Back when things were never hard I used to play there in that yard
And I just drove by to see if things had changed
Cokes were just a nickel then and across the street at the five and ten
A lot of things were cheap and square and strange
And the life that we had might have been but it was one we loved believin' in
And I just drove by to see if things had changed
I wondered now if love is still the way it was back then
I need to know that life is still a place worth livin' in
There it is just like it was a place where there was always love
And I just drove by to see if things had changed
[ guitar ]
In a world that seen it's better days it's good to know some things remain the same
Though standing still is not times way
Take to heart while in it's spring oh love is just a fragile thing
And I just drove by to see if things had changed
I wondered now if love is still...
I just drove by to see if things had changed

Day 100: April 10, 2009

Question 150:
Name the three most crucial body parts (in order) when it comes to personal appearance.

Responses:

• 1. Face (You almost always see this first); 2. Legs/Height (height is pretty crucial when it comes to appearance); 3. Stomach/body fat (I do not judge people based upon it, but it is important for appearance)
• Eyes, smile, chest

Song:
What I'm Trying to Say, Part 2, by Stars

Lyrics:
You look so good in the clothes of a poser
And when you smiled all the kids fell apart here
I know a place where it's warm and it's dry, dear
Let me take you there

North of the river all the streets are the same
We can pretend that they don't know our name
And the heat is turned all the way to full
So don't pretend that you don't feel the pull

I am trying to say
What I want to say
Without having to say
"I love you"

You look so good in the shoes of an outcast
I kissed your throat every time they said it wouldn't last
But then I knew you, I knew you, I knew you
I really knew you

We fell apart in the parties of the empty heart
We danced the junkies in the shadows of bad modern art
We clicked our heels and we wished we were home
One more tab and your silk hits the chrome

I am trying to say
What I want to say
Without having to say
"I love you"

I am trying to say
What I want to say
Without having to say
"I love you"

Springs comes in when I'm rolling up another one
I draw the curtains in the glare of the same old sun
We are collapsed in the act of just being here
Three blues, two greens and a beer...
We are collapsed in the act of just being here
Three blues, two greens and a beer...

I am trying to say
What I want to say
Without having to say
"I love you"

I am trying to say
What I want to say
Without having to say
"I love you"

Day 99: April 9, 2009

Question 88:
Which other culture would you choose to be born into?

Responses:

• Australia - they seem so open

Song:
Trouble Sleeping, by Corinne Bailey Rae

Lyrics:
It's late and I'm feeling so tired
Having trouble sleeping
This constant compromise
Between thinking and breathing

Could it be I'm suffering
Because I'll never give in
Won't say that I'm falling in love
(please please)
Tell me I don't see myself
Couldn't I blame something else
(no don't say it)
Don't say I'm falling love

Some kind of therapy
Is all I need
(all I need)
Please believe me
(Please believe me)
Some instant remedy
That can cure me completely

Could it be I'm suffering
Because I'll never give in
Won't say that I'm falling in love
(please please)
Tell me I don't see myself
Couldn't I blame something else
(no don't say it)
Don't say I'm falling love

Cause I've been there before
And it's not enough
So nobody say it
Don't even say it
I've got my eyes shut, whoah no, oh no

Could it be I'm suffering
Because I'll never give in
Won't say that I'm falling in love
(please please)
Tell me I don't see myself
Couldn't I blame something else
(no don't say it)
Don't say I'm falling love

(Don't say that I'm falling in love)
(Please please)
(Don't say that I'm falling in love)
(Please please)
(Don't say that I'm falling in love)
(Don't say that I'm falling in love)

Day 98: April 8, 2009

Question 140:
Would you drop ten pounds in exchange for instantly aging a year? Why or why not?

Responses:

• Never. That’s 365 days; 8760 hours; 525,600 minutes—you’d have to be crazy. I wouldn’t trade a second.
• No. Not worth it.

Song:
Amerykahn Promise, by Erykah Badu

Lyrics:
Promise to you baby, I'll love you tooth for tooth and eye for eye
Promise to you baby, I'll love you tru and good till the day I die

Promise Promise Amerykhan promise
Promise Promise Amerykhan promise

Promise to you baby, anything you want you know I'll buy
Promise to you baby, you will never have ask to me why

Promise Promise Amerykhan promise
Promise Promise Amerykhan promise
Promise Promise Amerykhan promise
Promise Promise Amerykhan promise

Promise I'll love you till the day I die
Promise I'll love you good and give you the sky
Promise I'll never love another guy
Promise I'll give you things that you can't buy
I'll give you my nose
I'll give you my toes
I'll give you my eyes
I'll give you my ears
I'll give you my hands
I'll give you my lips
I'll give you my tongue
I'll give you my thighs
Damn near anything you want

Promise to you baby, I'll love you tooth for tooth and eye for eye

Day 97: April 7, 2009

Question 2:
Would you rather meet your great great grandparents or your great great grandchildren? Why?

Responses:

• I don’t have any kids so by default it would have to be my great great grandparents and I would love hearing about my family’s history– but, just from a scientific perspective, should they in the future perfect cryogenic reanimation – I think it is fascinating to consider that people could be unfrozen and then personally meet their surviving progeny.
• Grandchildren. I would want to learn anything I could to avoid screwing up my lineage.
• I would want to meet my great great grandparents. I don't know anything about them and I want to know if they are anything like me. I wonder if they have bad teeth and eyes. I wonder if my great great grandmother is overbearing and abrasive like my mother. I wonder if my great great grandfather is calm like my father.
• Great great grandparents. Not sure why.

Song:
Heartbroke, by Good Life

Lyrics:
You stop stopping by to say hello
You started starting up each time I phone
I only call when I get the blues
You think at least I could turn to you
But I'm sure your heart is breaking too

It's getting better every day
I still reserve the right to complain to you
That being said I rarely do
You left me with nothing left to lose
But I'm sure your heart is breaking too

I see you find the way to pass the time
"You'd like him, he's a lot like you"
I didn't see you getting saddled up so soon
"Babe, I know you'll find somebody too"
Maybe another week to recoup
"It's never easy but I'm sure we'll make it through"
Yeah, I'm sure your heart is breaking too

I can't imagine how hard it's been
On second thought you don't seem to give a shit
The claim will pain but where's the bruise?
Yeah, I'm sure your heart is breaking too

Day 96: April 6, 2009

Question 55:
What does your perfect day look like?

Responses:

• Just beginning.
• waking up at 10am with a male model next to me. checking emails, texting my best friends. talking to my family. going to a brunch. then laying out for an hour or two and catching up on magazines and listening to my favorite songs. heading to a callback for a big movie. working out. spa treatment. having sex with my ex or a male model friend. dinner with friends. dancing at beatrice inn and making fun of lindsay lohan. blow in the bathroom. after party in a penthouse. orgy.
• Sleep in. Lazy morning. Gym/massage for a couple hours. Lazy afternoon. Nice dinner. Maybe a show.

Song:
Peace Train, by 10,000 Maniacs

Lyrics:
[Banned from later U.S. copies of In My Tribe due to Cat Stevens' agreement to the fatwah issued against Salman Rushdie ]

Now I've been happy lately, thinking about the good things to come
And I believe it could be, something good has begun

Oh I've been smiling lately, dreaming about the world as one
And I believe it could be, some day it's going to come

Cos out on the edge of darkness, there rides a peace train
Oh peace train take this country, come take me home again

Now I've been smiling lately, thinking about the good things to come
And I believe it could be, something good has begun

Oh peace train sounding louder
Glide on the peace train oh ah ee ah oh ah
Come on now peace train
Yes, peace train holy roller
Everyone jump on the peace train oh ah ee ah oh ah
Come on now peace train

Get your bags together, go bring your good friends too
Cos it's getting nearer, it soon will be with you

Now come and join the living, it's not so far from you
And it's getting nearer, soon it will all be true

Oh peace train sounding louder
Glide on the peace train oh ah ee ah oh ah
Come on now peace train, peace train

Now I've been crying lately, thinking about the world as it is
Why must we go on hating, why can't we live in bliss

Cos out on the edge of darkness, there rides a peace train
Oh peace train take this country, come take me home again

Oh peace train sounding louder
Glide on the peace train oh ah ee ah oh ah
Come on now the peace train
Yes peace train holy roller
Everyone jump on the peace train oh ah ee ah oh ah
Come on, come on, come on
Yes come on peace train
Yes it's the peace train
Oh ah ee ah oh ah
Come on now peace train
Oh peace train

Day 95: April 5, 2009

Question 21:
Would you stop eating all junk food to live 5 years longer? Why or why not?

Responses:

• I would give it up. And as many have said, the extra five years would feel like 10 without junk food.
• Extra 5 over 80—no; under 80, yes. I’m really not hooked on junk food. Easy to give up. Bread and cheese, much harder, yet I would still give it up for 5 more years if I was under 80 years old.
• NO - How could they be good years without cookies? Enjoying food is part of life’s pleasure and life’s regrets usually include missed opportunities for having fun. No one dies saying, “I should have had more broccoli.”
• Ask me when I’m 70

Song:
When I Met the Girl, by Big Kid

Lyrics:
When I met the girl
I lost my mind
'cause she is the only one that turns my world upside down

When I met the girl
she stole my heart
right from the start I knew she saw right through me, already knew me, makes me crazy, Oh Yeah!

(Chorus)
Girl gives me feelings I never had before
Blushing under cover, She's like no other
I never had a reason to love like this before
Girl gives me feelings, Oh Yeah!
'Cause I can't get her out of my mind,
Can't get her out of my mind- at all

When I met the girl, you changed my world
She is the only one that turns my world upside down
At the end of the day
I call her name
Gives me this crazy feeling when she calls back, turns her head, smiles at me, Oh Yeah!

(Chorus)
Girl gives me feelings I never had before
Blushing under cover, She's like no other

I never had a reason to love like this before
Girl gives me feelings, Oh Yeah!
'Cause I can't get her out of my mind,
Can't get her out of my mind- at all

When I met the girl...

Ask me what I dream of
Ask me what I think of
When I'm not with you
Ask me what I dream of
Ask me what I think of
When I'm not with you
When I'm not with you

when I met the girl
I lost my mind
'cause she is the only one that turns my world upside...

(Chorus)
Girl gives me feelings I never had before
Blushing Under Cover, She's like no other
I never had a reason to love like this before
Girl gives me feelings, Oh Yeah!
'Cause I can't get her out of my mind,
Can't get her out of my mind- at all

When I met the Girl- I met the girl
When I met the Girl- I met the girl

Day 94: April 4, 2009

Question 65:
Is it more difficult for you to speak kindly or honestly?

Responses:

• I used to consider myself a kind person and I used to consider myself an honest person. I have come to realize that I am not always either of the two. Although there is an edge to me, I think I can easily be kind when the circumstance calls for it. It is in my nature, I think, to be so - it is only outside influences (stress, fear, fatigue...) that can make me forget to take care of others. I find it much harder to speak honestly because in order to speak honestly, you have to THINK honestly, and that, for me, has taken a concerted effort. I have recognized that I will speak of what I WISH was true rather than the actual truth. Also, kindness is relative - we relate it to other people. Truth is truth - but it has to travel through the mind and heart and tongue of a subjective being and there it can become something other than absolutely truthful. Despite what our intention is.
• It is easy to be kind. It is very difficult to speak honestly when so much of one's truth is sub-conscience or even un-conscience. It is difficult to know one's truth, in that sense it is difficult to speak it.
• Honestly. Especially if it's not a good honest.

Song:
Bad Tom Smith, by Blind Corn Liquor Pickers

Lyrics:
Long frock and beat up hat
Horse beat to hell and back
Old miners swear to’ve seen him beating dust up ‘long the track
The hills ain’t known no rest
Since the feudin’ settled in
And Bad Tom Smith found focus for the storm he’d held within

Dark and blood soaked ground
Pitched battles all around
A siege on Perry County and the law won’t make a sound
Armed bands of kin obsessed
With grievance to redress
Tom Smith done tipped the balance in this pitch black bitter mess

Bad Tom Smith ain’t gonna haunt these hills no more
He’ll be danglin’ down through bloody Breathitt County’s scaffold floor
Bring ‘em down from Owsley County, bring ‘em down from Knott and Lee
Bring ‘em out from mines in Hazard, man’s one chance to see
The why and what of hell in the devil’s eyes and the killer’s pleas

Under fire hot as hell
Boys pinned down by the well
Tom Smith came down on Eversole hard rainin’ shotgun shells
Rank mountain boy’s no match
For cold mercenary will
The French clan bought the mountain when they paid Bad Tom to kill

Bad Tom Smith ain’t gonna haunt these hills no more
He’ll be danglin’ down through bloody Breathitt County’s scaffold floor
Bring ‘em down from Owsley County, bring ‘em down from Knott and Lee
Bring ‘em out from mines in Hazard, man’s one chance to see
The why and what of hell in the devil’s eyes and the killer’s pleas

Sun up on Jackson Square
Judge Parker calls for prayer
A hush came down like water as old Tom’s words filled the air
Take warning from my fate
If you judge me be damned
Bad whiskey and bad women lord have brought me to where I am

Bad Tom Smith ain’t gonna haunt these hills no more
He’ll be danglin’ down through bloody Breathitt County’s scaffold floor
Bring ‘em down from Owsley County, bring ‘em down from Knott and Lee
Bring ‘em out from mines in Hazard, man’s one chance to see
The why and what of hell in the devil’s eyes and the killer’s pleas

Day 93: April 3, 2009

Question 144:
Someone has left a twenty-dollar bill floating in the toilet in a public restroom. The water appears clean. What do you do? Would your answer change if it was a five or a fifty?

Responses:

• Get it! No change if it was a 5 or 50.

Song:
Show Me, by John Legend

Lyrics:
I realize as I lay down to sleep
We haven't spoken in weeks
So many things that I'd like to know
Come have a talk with me
I need a sign, something I can see
Why all the mystery?
I try not to fall for make believe
But what is reality?
Where do we go?
What do we know?
Life has to have a meaning
Show me the light
Show me the way
Show that you're listening

Show me that you love me
Show me that you walk with me
Hopefully, just above me
Heaven's watching over me

Guess it's funny how I say thanks to you
For all you've given me
Sometimes the price of what you gave to me
I can't stop questioning
O God of love, peace, and mercy
Why so much suffering?
I pray for the world, it gets worse to me
Wonder if you're listening
When people go
Why do they go?
Why don't you choose me?
But someday I know
I'm gonna go
I hope you're waiting for me

Show me that you love me
Show me that you walk with me
Hopefully, just above me
Heaven's watching over me

Maybe we'll talk
Some other night
Right now I'll take it easy
Won't spend my time
Waiting to die
Enjoy the life I'm living

Show me that you love me
Show me that you walk with me
Hopefully, just above me
Heaven's watching over me

92 Days In

but who's counting.

I am SO far behind with the writing...The last script I wrote was day 67. It's going to be a game of catch-up for a few days. Fortunately, I'm giving myself the leniency to take time off if I need it. Otherwise, I'd start dreading having to write every day. Though, I can't say I'm looking forward to having to catch up on over 20 scripts.

I've been thinking about trying to write a full script within a single page, so I think I'll try that to help catch up.

We'll see. Work is going to be slower in April, so I should be able to get back into the swing of things. March was brutal, so I really had no chance.

Here's hopin!

Day 92: April 2, 2009

Question 58:
Who would you like to trade places with for one month?

Responses:

• If I had to trade places with someone for a month (which I'm discovering I don't really want to do), I would trade places with someone in a Third-World country. How do they live from day to day without the modern advances that we're so used to? Is it a simpler life, and, therefore, happier? Or is the work too hard for me? The customs incomprehensible? And would they want to trade places with me?
• Okay, so this immediately opened a string of thoughts for me. Absolute first person that came to mind, for reasons I didn't quite get, was Tina Turner. Then I realized -- she's got quite the life, and it's a life she's worked hard for. Living well in France, still talented, beautiful and energetic, with a guy who adores her, a healthy body, spiritual mind, writes her own ticket which includes some non-conformity and which, seemingly, is a pretty nice and leisurely one. Since I don't follow the personal lives of celebrities, I don't know for sure but I'm pretty confident that she 'gives back' in ways that make her feel good and that benefit good causes I myself might support. And I just have a sense that she's a happy, contented person who still loves the hoopla of her marketability but thoroughly loves to be in her private world. The appeal, I think, is that it's exactly where I'd like to be in my own life right now. Balanced among a nice variety of thangs. As I thought about "who else might I want to trade places with?", it occurred to me that each fleeting consideration was a female. So I began to wonder if there were any males I'd want to trade with. Nope. None that come to mind. But I'll likely be thinking of this for a few days, and will certainly let you know more thoughts if they occur.
• Kevin Spacey's boyfriend

Song:
Love In Fear, by The Constantines

Lyrics:
On the weird winds of Ontario, came worry sailing strange and low.
And we laid under the heavy sheets to love to spite the strange winds blowing.
To lust with raging lungs.
What hangs above when we love in fear?
Don't take me to the hospital.
Don't tie me to the wires.
Just kiss me on a rooftop.
It's for us.
It's a red light flashing under helicopters of desire.
Red light: It's for us.

Day 91: April 1, 2009

Question 15:
What one fear would you like to conquer?

Responses:

• I am a cataclysmic combination of my many phobias, but I suppose my greatest fear is the fear of being alone and unloved
• This is rather hard to answer because I don’t have any real fears so instead I’ll tell you something I don’t much care for which are insects, especially those that have the ability to inflict pain and rodents. They are annoying and not welcome in my space. I understand that they are an intricate part of our eco-system so they are free to do as they wish as long as they stay away from me. So I would like to conquer my dislike of insects and rodents.
• Confronting authority

Song:
Day Too Soon, by Sia

Lyrics:
Pick me up in your arms
Carry me away from harm
You're never gonna put me down
I know you're just one good man
You'll tire before we see land
You're never gonna put me down

Oh I've been running all my life
I ran away, I ran away from good
Yeah I've been waiting all my life
You're not a day you're not day too soon

Honey I will stitch you
Darling I will fit you in my heart
Darling I will meet you
Darling I will keep you in my heart

You'll risk all this for just a kiss
I promise I will not resist
Promise they won't track us down
And when we reach the good place
Let's be sure to leave no trace
Promise they won't track us down

Now I've been running all my life
I ran away, I ran away from good
Yeah, I've been waiting all my life
You're not a day, you're not a day too soon

Darling I will keep you
Darling I will meet you in my heart
Honey I will fit you
Darling I will stitch you in my heart

I've been running all my life
I ran away, I ran away from good
Yeah I've been waiting all my life
You're not a day, you're not a day too soon

Oh Darling I will meet you
Darling I will keep you in my heart
Darling I will fit you
Darling I will stitch you in my heart

Darling I will meet you
Darling I will keep you in my heart
Darling I will fit you
Darling I will stitch you in my heart

Day 90: March 31, 2009

Question 116:
What event in the past, present, or future would you like to witness in person?

Responses:

• Landing on the moon

Song:
Untouched, by The Veronicas

Lyrics:
I go ooh ooh, you go ah ah
Lalalalalalalala

Lalalalalalalala
I wanna wanna wanna get get get what I want
Don't stop
Give me give me give me what you got got
Cause I can't wait wait wait any more more more more
Don't even talk about the consequence
Cause right now you're the only thing that's making any sense to me
And I don't give a damn what they say, what they think think
Cause you're the only one who's on my mind
I'll never ever let you leave me
I'll try to stop time for ever, never wanna hear you say goodbye (bye bye bye)

I feel so untouched
And I want you so much
That I just can't resist you
It's not enough to say that I miss you
I feel so untouched right now
Need you so much somehow
I can't forget you
I've gone crazy from the moment I met you

Untouched
And I need you so much

See you, breathe you, I want to be you
Alalalala alalalala
You can take take take take take time time
To live live the way you gotta gotta live your life
Give me give me give me all of you you
Don't be scared
I'll see you through the loneliness of one more more more
Don't even think about what's right or wrong, wrong or right
'Cause in the end it's only you and me and no one else is gonna be around
To answer all the questions left behind
And you and I are meant to be so even if the world falls down today
You've still got me to hold you up up
And I will never let you down (down)

I feel so untouched
And I want you so much
That I just can't resist you
It's not enough to say that I miss you
I feel so untouched right now
Need you so much somehow
I can't forget you
I've gone crazy from the moment I met you

Untouched, untouched, untouched, untouched, untouched
Alalalala alalalala
Untouched
Alalalala alalalala

I feel so untouched
And I want you so much
That I just can't resist you
It's not enough to say that I miss you
I feel so untouched right now
Need you so much somehow
I can't forget you
I've gone crazy from the moment I met you

I feel so untouched
And I want you so much
That I just can't resist you
It's not enough to say that I miss you
I feel so untouched right now
Need you so much somehow
I can't forget you
I've gone crazy from the moment I met you

Untouched, untouched, untouched

Day 89: March 30, 2009

Question 79:
What historical time period would you most like to visit?

Responses:

• 1500's, while Shakespeare was around. I would have liked to wear the fashion, live in a beautiful castle, eat dinner at a table where the person across from you is literally one mile away. I love the class, the big dances, the messy battles and burnings. The arts were blossoming. I think I would like to have been royalty and have the actors act for me. Is that wrong?
• I have a great curiosity to know what it felt like to live during the English Renaissance (not during Plague years, please). What was it like to put on a play then (!), to be a playgoer, to experience a time when arts were specifically encouraged.
• I am most interested in being a part of the late 1700's when the birth of our nation was forming. Politically, that was the most significant time for me.
• The days of Jesus to see what really happened.

Song:
Comfy in Nautica, by Panda Bear

Lyrics:
try try try try try try (repeated)
try to tell me how to do it
only because i'm new to it
coolness is having courage
courage to do what's right
i'll try to remember always
just to have a good time
try to show me that you know me
do you know what coolness really is?
winning is what you want to
but you're scared to go forth
you try to remember always
always to have a good time
good time (x9)
try and have a softer inside
shut up boy and be a soldier
coolness is having courage
courage to do what's right
try to remember always
just to have a good time
winning is what you want to
winning but you're scared to go forth
try to remember always
always to have a good time
good time

Day 88: March 29, 2009

Question 124:
Which celebrity do people say you resemble?

Responses:

• None. Though when I was younger, people said I looked like Matthew Broderick. Though I don't really think it was because of my looks so much as it was that I was always seen with a horse.

Song:
Walk on the Wild Side, by Lou Reed

Lyrics:
Holly came from Miami, F.L.A.
Hitch-hiked her way across the USA
Plucked her eyebrows on the way
Shaved her legs and then he was a she
She says, Hey babe
Take a walk on the wild side
Hey honey
Take a walk on the wild side

Candy came from out on the Island
In the backroom she was everybody's darlin'
But she never lost her head
Even when she was giving head
She says, Hey babe
Take a walk on the wild side
I Said, Hey baby
Take a walk on the wild side
And the coloured girls go
Doo do doo do doo do do doo..

Little Joe never once gave it away
Everybody had to pay and pay
A hustle here and a hustle there
New York City's the place where they say,
Hey babe, take a walk on the wild side
I said, Hey Joe
Take a walk on the wild side

Sugar Plum Fairy came and hit the streets
Lookin' for soul food and a place to eat
Went to the Apollo
You should've seen em go go go
They said, Hey shuga Take a walk on the wild side
I Said, Hey babe
Take a walk on the wild side
All right, huh

Jackie is just speeding away
Thought she was James Dean for a day
Then I guess she had to crash
Valium would have helped that bash
Said, Hey babe,
Take a walk on the wild side
I said, Hey honey,
Take a walk on the wild side
And the coloured girls say,
Doo do doo do doo do do doo

Day 87: March 28, 2009

Question 154:
Which makes for more fun at a wedding reception: bands or DJs? Why?

Responses:

• DJs, even though they're usually pretty cheesy, they have a good variety of options. Bands are usually awful.

Song:
The Glass Parade, by Cary Brothers

Lyrics:
Just a voice inside your head
Whispering all the hope is dead
All the times you had to prove
That no one really loves you

I found you in a reflection
You didn't want me to see
I will give you all I have
Just look up, break down and believe

This is a glass parade
A fragile state
And I am trying not to break
And the stars are shining
The moon is right
And I would kill to be with you tonight

Wish you told me all the truth
So afraid to face an absolute
All the fights you had to lose
All the fear was put upon you

I found you when you were broken
Too many cracks of deceit
I will give you all I have
Just look up, break down and believe

This is a glass parade
A fragile state
And I am trying not to break
And the stars are shining
The moon is right
And I would kill to be with you tonight

This is the feeling, falling
So much I want to say
Show me the same emotion
Show me what's at stake
And how much can you take
When you realize your fate?

Hold me now as the car lights fade
And we are dancing in the glass parade
Dancing in the glass parade
We are dancing in the glass parade

It's just a voice inside your head

Day 86: March 27, 2009

Question 126:
Would you prefer money for a housekeeper, cook, gardener, or personal secretary?

Responses:

• Love to cook, couldn’t care less about a garden in my own yard, and wouldn’t have enough for a secretary to do (yet); but am strongly attracted to the idea of a Housekeeper because (a) I can make quite a mess and (b) I’m not fond of those chores
• Money for a housekeeper, as I don't particularly enjoy cleaning. Of course, I would also need money for hidden cameras, since I don't trust anyone.
• We have a housekeeper and a gardener. We like to cook. Therefore, a personal secretary.

Song:
Keep It Together, by Madonna

Lyrics:
Keep, keep it together
Keep people together forever and ever

I got brothers, I got some sisters too
Stuck in the middle tell you what I'm gonna do
Gonna get out of here, I'm gonna leave this place
So I can forget every single hungry face
I'm tired of sharing all the hand me downs
To get attention I must always be the clown
I wanna be different, I wanna be on my own
But Daddy said listen, you will always have a home

[Chorus:]

Keep it together in the family
They're a reminder of your history
Brothers and sisters they hold the key
To your heart and your soul
Don't forget that your family is gold

I hit the big time but I still get the blues
Everyone's a stranger, city life can get to you
People can be so cold, never want to turn your back
Just givin' to get something
Always wanting something back
When I get lonely and I need to be
Loved for who I am, not what they want to see
Brothers and sisters, they've always been there for me
We have a connection, home is where the heart should be

[chorus]

[Intermediate:]

When I look back on all the misery
And all the heartache that they brought to me
I wouldn't change it for another chance
'Cause blood is thicker than any other circumstance

When I get lonely and I need to be
Loved for who I am, not what they want to see
Brothers and sisters, they've always been there for me
We have a connection, home is where the heart should be

[intermediate]
[chorus]

Keep, keep it together
Keep people together forever and ever
[repeat and fade]